story interrupted

from boundarypush by Wren Dove Lark

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This was the final song I wrote for this album. And not only that, it uses different samples than the other tracks, but I still thought it fit in with the theme of this album. I wrote it after my stepfather died in a car crash last year. His funeral was traumatic for me because relatives I'm currently not on speaking terms were there to support my mom and I was dissociating being near them after all the pain they've put me through. I started seeing similarities between his death and my schism with family. When someone dies or leaves a situation, they're no longer there to correct the record about what is said about them because their story was interrupted. Now it's left to the people left behind to tell the story, and when I talk about my stepfather, I always worry I'm telling a story from my perspective that maybe isn't how he would see that memory. He's dead now and is beyond such worries as how true to his internal experience these stories are. It's a different experience when you're in a schism with your family though. You leave, and you know people are talking about you, but you gave up your ability to correct the record about things involving you when you chose not to speak with them anymore. This song is partially about making peace with that fact while also making peace with my stepfather's tragic death.

lyrics

[Verse 1]

Sometimes I think that maybe I could use a brain scan
Scared of having shit in common with a dead man
Ain't it strange how both our narratives are out of our control now

Exiled exercising my autonomy
You were taken falling victim to velocity
Now we’re separated from all that we used to know

And I’m jealous of you
How you know where you’re headed to
While I’m stuck in a fog
Can’t see 10 feet in front of me

And how can you still move
When this abyss is in front of you
I’m in awe of your surrender
Till I look in the mirror

[Prechorus]

That’s when
I freeze, I thaw
I clench my jaw
I cry late at night
Then I shake it off

I drag myself
Throughout this hell
And wonder what you’d think of me

I beg, I plead
For clarity
This liminal living
Is killing me

And I know that you’d roll your eyes
But can you please humor me?

[Chorus]

Ain’t it sad to be a story interrupted
Fine one moment then you fade into nothing
When they wrest the wheel out of your control
Making all you know intangible

Front and center in a schism you ain’t ask for
Try to fight it but they force you through the back door
They leave you behind
All frozen in time
As a story interrupted
As a story interrupted

[Verse 2]

Since you left
I’ve been thinking
Of all of the ways
We are shaped
By the stories
That people
Will tell in our absence

But unlike you
I’m left to wonder
What they might think of me
And who I’m supposed to be
And what that might mean for me
I don't know

Since you left
I’ve been standing in place
Yet I’m drifting away
From the space
I thought that I once occupied
I don’t know what’s wrong with me

It hurts to recognize that
You were part of what tethered me

[Prechorus]

‘Cause now
I freeze, I thaw
I clench my jaw
I cry late at night
Then I shake it off

I drag myself
Throughout this hell
And wonder what you’d think of me

I beg, I plead
For clarity
This liminal living
Is killing me

And I know that you’d roll your eyes
But can you please humor me?

[Chorus]

Ain’t it sad to be a story interrupted
Fine one moment then you fade into nothing
When they wrest the wheel out of your control
Making all you know intangible

Front and center in a schism you ain’t ask for
Try to fight it but they force you through the back door
They leave you behind
All frozen in time
As a story interrupted
As a story interrupted

[Bridge]

Yeah
It feels weird to me admitting that I miss you
You were
Representative but you were not the issue
Purple martins on the house in the back yard
Made her smile what more could I ask for

There were problems but I swore that we could fix them
It felt weird to meet a man who fucking listened
I linger inside this sentimental view
This narrative of mine that I project on you
‘Cause your story interrupted
Yeah your story interrupted
Yeah your story interrupted
Yeah your story interrupted

[Chorus]

Yeah
Ain’t it sad to be a story interrupted
Fine one moment then you fade into nothing
When they wrest the wheel out of your control
Making all you know intangible

Front and center in a schism you ain’t ask for
Try to fight it but they force you through the back door
They leave you behind
All frozen in time
As a story interrupted
As a story interrupted
As a story interrupted

credits

from boundarypush, released February 9, 2024

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Wren Dove Lark Newark, New Jersey

I'm Wren (she/her). I write weird pop music for trans girls to cathartically cry to. If others get something from my music, that's awesome too. :)

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