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by Wren Dove Lark

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1.
do it again 02:43
Iā€™m so depressed I lose my focus They say, ā€œYouā€™re probably fineā€ Why canā€™t they notice? Iā€™ve always known To learn to cope With the pain Get up and do it again Just do your best Make sure you do it with a smile Then if youā€™re lucky Have a place to rest your head a while To Work for this guy so he can pay me with some Vyvanse When it gets tough, dissociate and put myself in a trance Iā€™ll pay his mortgage, keep him gorgeous, drive myself insane Get off and stay pissed off Wake up and do it again Iā€™m so depressed Iā€™m so in debt They said ā€œInvest in your future, But you ainā€™t earned it yetā€ Iā€™ve always tried To push my trauma aside Circumstances, they change But you go and do it again 100 cover letters For 100 applications I get just one call back Itā€™s a celebration To Work for this guy so he can pay me with some estrogen Come back tomorrow so that he can tell me Iā€™m still a man Pad his pockets, buy his rockets, watch them say ā€œHeā€™s great!ā€ Get off and stay pissed off Wake up and do it again And again and again And again and again And Maybe Iā€™ll hang with my friends When the pandemics end But we know they won't end They'll just fuck up and do it again.
2.
curdled 02:39
Glued to the bed Staring at the ceiling Feel it oozing out Thereā€™s no stopping the bleeding A deep paralysis Due to indecision Somethingā€™s gotta change You said you would but didnā€™t Thereā€™s a fear creeping Thereā€™s a rotten smell A bemused resignation I know too well An internal rebellion That Iā€™ve failed to quell Thereā€™s a story that Iā€™m sad I have to tell About How my hope Itā€™s curdled My strength Itā€™s curdled My respect for you Itā€™s curdled Every word I try to say to you is curdled Itā€™s curdled (x8) Body lying idle While I downward spiral Shallow breathing As Iā€™m seething Let in sink in How all of my fears From the past 20 years Lie in front of me And My hope Itā€™s curdled My strength Itā€™s curdled My respect for you Itā€™s curdled Every word I try to say to you is curdled Itā€™s curdled (x8) Say you canā€™t see it Guess Iā€™m the problem Say you canā€™t see it Guess Iā€™m the problem I was optimistic You refused to see it Guess Iā€™m the problem Iā€™ve always been the problem Guess Iā€™m the problem (Itā€™s curdled) x3 Iā€™ve always been the problem (Iā€™m curdled)
3.
content 02:51
Is it weird Iā€™m content with being alone If I canā€™t find a girl like me ā€˜Cause these men only ever annoy me Is it sad to admit Iā€™m content with this solitude When giving into my heart just destroys me Iā€™m an oracle, a therapist, a good time Iā€™m an obstacle, a moodboard, a dollar sign Heā€™ll see me as anything but human Just ā€˜Cause he canā€™t recognize the sins of his father He canā€™t draw a line ā€˜Cause heā€™s made his mind up That heā€™s gonna be like his father He fall in line ā€˜Cause heā€™ll be fine And maybe heā€™ll take his kids farther Heā€™ll have a son Heā€™ll say he loves But prays she donā€™t end up his daughter The worldā€™s only gonna grow hotter And heā€™s gotta be like his father Is it bad that I feel like Iā€™m damaged beyond repair That Iā€™m too traumatized to give myself to a girl who cares Is it wrong that Iā€™m stuck in the shadow of all that he did to me Is it right that I feel so damn scared? Just Cause he canā€™t recognize the sins of his father He canā€™t draw a line ā€˜Cause heā€™s made his mind up That heā€™s gonna be like his father He fall in line ā€˜Cause heā€™ll be fine And maybe heā€™ll take his kids farther Heā€™ll have a son Heā€™ll say he loves But prays she donā€™t end up his daughter The worldā€™s only gonna grow hotter Heā€™s content with becoming his father And Iā€™m content with being alone And Iā€™m content with being alone And Iā€™m content with being alone.
4.
it's sad 02:21
& Itā€™s sad You canā€™t See how I see Myself Is due To how You saw Me & Itā€™s sad Iā€™m stuck Itā€™s sad My executive Functionā€™s left me But I Guess Iā€™m where you want me Moving really slowly Trudging through a mudslide Looking for the bright side And you donā€™t really know me Inasmuch as control me And know what youā€™re saying It ainā€™t fucking helping Get off me & Itā€™s sad I tried My whole Life to Be everything You said You wanted & Itā€™s sad Weā€™re far Itā€™s sad You canā€™t Meet me Halfway from where you are But I Guess Iā€™m where you want me Moving really slowly Trudging through a mudslide Looking for the bright side And you donā€™t really know me Inasmuch as control me And I know what youā€™re saying It ainā€™t fucking helping It ainā€™t fucking helping (x4) Please fucking get off me (x4) Yeah itā€™s sad
5.
bandwidth 02:35
I tried to water it down I tried to make it easy I tried to spare your feelings I tried to keep it breezy I tried to hold your hand I tried to help you understand But you donā€™t want to understand You got yours, so thatā€™s fine. Well I donā€™t care Anymore I donā€™t care Anymore I donā€™t care Anymore I donā€™t care Anymore At the point Where I wish I could just Pull away And retreat Somewhere deep In the forest Itā€™s depressing The best I Can hope for Is that youā€™ll Just learn to Ignore us But I donā€™t care Anymore I donā€™t care Anymore I donā€™t have Any more Bandwidth To those who have some more bandwidth I implore you, use it. ā€˜Cause when Iā€™ve got some more bandwidth for these fuckers Promise Iā€™ll get back to it But I canā€™t care Anymore I canā€™t care Anymore I canā€™t care Anymore I canā€™t care Anymore Oh Iā€™m At the point Where I wish I could just Pull away And retreat Somewhere deep In the forest Itā€™s depressing The best I Can hope for Is that theyā€™ll Just learn to Ignore us But I canā€™t care Anymore I canā€™t care Anymore I donā€™t have Any more Bandwidth Yeah I canā€™t care Anymore I canā€™t care Anymore I donā€™t have Any more Bandwidth I donā€™t have anymore bandwidth I donā€™t have anymore bandwidth I donā€™t have anymore bandwidth Iā€™m at my breaking point
6.
beautiful 03:57
Ghosts of people I barely knew Haunt every synapse of my rapid fire brain I try to sleep, they make bizarre shapes in my dreams They freak me out, I hug my dog so tight she screams & There I am, Iā€™m wide awake With no desire to face the day But I see the sun And I tell myself that Itā€™s too beautiful a day to die And I canā€™t promise youā€™ll make it But itā€™s a beautiful day to try So letā€™s see how far that takes you Youā€™ve got too beautiful a face to hide And I hate how the world tries to break you But please donā€™t let it win Men Iā€™ve accepted I canā€™t change I put them in their paper boats and push them all downstream I canā€™t describe what that means But it hurts so much But I still stare at the sun And tell myself that Itā€™s too beautiful a day to die And I canā€™t promise youā€™ll make it But itā€™s a beautiful day to try So letā€™s see how far that takes you Youā€™ve got too beautiful a face to hide And I hate how the world tries to break you But please donā€™t let it win This world has taken so damn much from you Please donā€™t give in And every part of you that they degrade And everything of yours you love they try to take away And every hope of yours you have for better days Just hold them in Please donā€™t give in Just hold them in Donā€™t let them win Donā€™t let them win
7.
My best friend is back in town There's a bad taste in my mouth Her eyes fell low and heavy with shame and cum She must have been desperate; she acted so lonely She is deserving of affection, I am glad that she found love What love lays bare in me is energy So I give up that which keeps me going and I still end up lonely Sick with loss and shame so I edit for mistakes to determine what I'd done that made her act this way She'll forget her actions Someday, I'll forget her actions Ashes to ashes to ashes to ashes, we will all die someday I am full of light I am full of light I am full of light I am full of light I am filled with joy I am filled with joy I am filled with joy I am full of peace I am full of peace I am full of peace I am full of peace I had this dream that I forgave my enemies My enemies

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7 songs (6 originals and 1 cover) of plunderphonic pop that pulls from various sound palettes from different genres. Every song incorporates samples from songs that really don't belong together, but I've tuned them to the same bpm and key to "force" them work together. It's a metaphor for the lyrics which are about making do in circumstances that are far from ideal.

It's a sad album, but I think it has some hopeful undertones.

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released March 5, 2021

All songs arranged, recorded, and produced by Wren Dove Lark

All songs written by Wren Dove Lark except "i (perfect pussy cover)" which was written by Perfect Pussy (Meredith Graves, Ray McAndrew, Greg Ambler, Garrett Koloski & Shaun Sutkus).

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Wren Dove Lark Newark, New Jersey

I'm Wren (she/her). I write weird pop music for trans girls to cathartically cry to. If others get something from my music, that's awesome too. :)

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