people pleasing

from boundarypush by Wren Dove Lark

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I realized I struggled to keep the same energy I had in the first two songs with my family and other loved ones re: my transness. Even though I was "out", I was slowing my transition down and depriving myself of what I wanted to please others. I wrote this song to remind myself not to do that anymore.

lyrics

[Verse 1]

Oh my
I wonder what could have been wrong with me
Thinking I
Could teach you how to treat me lovingly

I
Delayed turning my page
Thinking if I could wait
You'd help write my next chapter with me

And only
God knows
All the throes
Of depression I sunk into

All the parts of my heart
I simply sacrificed to you

How how I pined
For the high
Of just one scrap of your attention
Can't comprehend it how I

[Prechorus]

Wasted my life by giving you the benefit of the doubt
Guess I caved into you 'cause I thought it was the easy way out
But then the current pulled me under when my life it flashed before my eyes
And I realized

[Chorus]

That all my
People pleasing just ain't pleasing me no more
Yeah all my
People pleasing just ain't pleasing me no more
Yeah all my
People pleasing just ain't pleasing me no more
Yeah all my
People pleasing just ain't pleasing me no more

And I wish I could go back and tell myself that I deserved much more
So the old me could have seen nobody's love is worth begging for
But time's a raging river pushing me away and I can't go back
So people pleasing could you please stay in the past?
Stay in the past

[Verse 2]

Oh dear
All the fear
I had I didn't measure up

All the times
That I cried
Thinking I'd never be enough

Only now
Have I found
That confidence to call your bluff

And
Goodness gracious
All my patience
You were never worthy of

Always craving
Validation
From you that was never gonna come

How I pained
For the taste
Of just one crumb of your affection
Feel so dejected because of

[Prechorus]

Wasted my life by giving you the benefit of the doubt
Guess I caved into you 'cause I thought it was the easy way out
But then the current pulled me under when my life it flashed before my eyes
And I realized

[Chorus]

That all my
People pleasing just ain't pleasing me no more
Yeah all my
People pleasing just ain't pleasing me no more
Yeah all my
People pleasing just ain't pleasing me no more
Yeah all my
People pleasing just ain't pleasing me no more

And I wish I could go back and tell myself that I deserved much more
So the old me could have seen nobody's love is worth begging for
But time's a raging river pushing me away and I can't go back
So people pleasing could you please stay in the past?
Stay in the past

[Bridge]

Last night I was crying in bed
I was sitting all alone set off by something you said
I took a look in the mirror, saw my eyes turning red
I said "Now watch out baby, or you're gonna wind up dead"

So last night I stopped trying to meet
All these asinine expectations you kept placing on me
I took a long, deep breath
Said I'm done placing someone above me
Who don't know how to love me

[Chorus]

'Cause all my
People pleasing just ain't pleasing me no more
Yeah all my
People pleasing just ain't pleasing me no more
Yeah all my
People pleasing just ain't pleasing me no more
Yeah all my
People pleasing just ain't pleasing me no more

And I wish I could go back and tell myself that I deserved much more
So the old me could have seen nobody's love is worth begging for
But time's a raging river pushing me away and I can't go back
So people pleasing could you please stay in the past?
Stay in the past

credits

from boundarypush, released February 9, 2024

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Wren Dove Lark Newark, New Jersey

I'm Wren (she/her). I write weird pop music for trans girls to cathartically cry to. If others get something from my music, that's awesome too. :)

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