bitter pill

from boundarypush by Wren Dove Lark

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I wrote this song in the form of a break up song, but it is more based on like my schism with certain family members. I love it. Somehow despite sampling contemporary christian music and drum breaks, it came out sounding like a very punky, country ballad. I have another version of this song that's slower and more somber included as a bonus track here for people who buy the album!

lyrics

[Verse 1]

Yeah
It hurts to let go
Of this future I thought I'd build together with you
And reconciling what it's turned into

And
It hurts to have to see
This image I had of you getting tarnished right in front of me
I wouldn't wish it on my enemy

[Prechorus 1]

'Cause it's so hard
To get this far
And know you're gonna have to start again

I lose my mind
Wasting all my time
Thinking 'bout what could have been

And being left with the admission that

[Chorus]

I will always love you
But I'd love to finally have a break
And there's a part of me that needs you
But I know I need to get away

I'm glad that we had our fun
But now the damage is done
And I can't think of nothing left to do
Except for me
To go and have a drink or two

'Cause
There's a bitter pill
I need to force myself to swallow
I'm guessing it's time for me accept that
All of your promises are gonna be hollow

I hope you know my heart breaks
For the person who I know that you could be
And I don't know what else to say
I wish it could have gone differently
It's such a damn bitter pill.
It's such a damn bitter pill.

[Verse 2]

It hurts to have to know
I was always a square peg trying to fit into a round hole
And that was always your goal for me

And it hurts to come to terms with
Letting myself just get stuck inside
This positive feedback loop of codependence
With you

[Prechorus 2]

'Cause it's so hard
To fight this hard
And know I'm gonna have to start again

I lose my mind
Every single time
I try to let you back in

Just to come back to this place where

[Chorus]

I will always love you
But I'd love to finally have a break
And there's a part of me that needs you
But I know I need to get away

I'm glad that we had our fun
But now the damage is done
And I can't think of nothing left to do
Except for me
To go and have a drink or two

'Cause
There's a bitter pill
I need to force myself to swallow
I'm guessing it's time for me accept that
All of your promises are gonna be hollow

I hope you know my heart breaks
For the person who I know that you could be
And I don't know what else to say
I wish it could have gone differently
It's such a damn bitter pill.
It's such a damn bitter pill.
It's so damn bitter

[Bridge]

And it gets bitterer with time
Festering until it's sour, acrid, and vile
Made salty by the teardrops from my eyes
Until it's rotten like the dreams I left behind

There ain't no way to sugarcoat it
I can't stop myself from choking

[Chorus]

On that bitter pill
I need to force myself to swallow
I'm guessing it's time for me accept that
All of your promises are gonna be hollow

I hope you know my heart breaks
For the person who I know that you could be
And I don't know what else to say
I wish it could have gone differently
It's such a damn bitter pill.
It's such a damn bitter pill.
It's such a damn bitter pill

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from boundarypush, released February 9, 2024

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Wren Dove Lark Newark, New Jersey

I'm Wren (she/her). I write weird pop music for trans girls to cathartically cry to. If others get something from my music, that's awesome too. :)

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